Been quiet for a while. A long while.
2020 was going to be the year I busted out my second album. Had a game plan and everything. I remember sending P a note in January titled “Weather 2020 - Let’s do this!”
I don’t create songs for fun, but to express angst, frustration, doubt or pain. It’s how I’ve processed the world since I was 12. I rely on the tidy format of a song to package and distill my visceral reaction to unpleasant events in my life. With my first release, I hoped in some small way to help others currently struggling through similar situations process how they feel.
We squeaked in a few sessions in 2020 before the world started melting down then abruptly froze in stasis. Singing and coproducing songs are not activities conducive to zoom. Tried one in person session in the summer for a very specific song (cover for a potential sync submission) which required extra planning and safety precautions. But despite this glimmer of progress, I just could not continue.
While most of my new songs are just as vitriolic and cathartic as those on Cubicle Zombie, dealing with death, sexism, politics, relationships… these struggles seem trivial given what we’ve all just been through. Right now they feel like dropped coins, relics from a bygone era, frozen in a thick layer of ice. As the world starts to thaw, I don’t know if I’ll recover them.